I have always feared the storms….always. I have no control over what is happening in the world. 2020 is turning out to be inhospitable , depressing, and when I take my eyes off of Jesus, scary.

Priscilla Shrirer, in Awaken, wrote,”Your choice of building material determines your future. The way we build—it matters. The quality of materials we utilize to construct our lives matters. Isn’t that what Jesus said when He asked, “Why do you call Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do what I say? Everyone who comes to Me and hears My words and acts on them, I will show you whom he is like: he is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid a foundation on the rock; and when a flood occurred, the torrent burst against that house and could not shake it, because it had been well built” (Luke 6:46–49). The strength of being “on the rock.” “That house . . . could not shake.” “It had been well built.” Your choice of building material determines your future. Digging deep, hitting bedrock, and pouring a solid foundation on Christ alone and His Word alone are what secures you solidly to the ground. Because, listen to me, the storms are coming. And yet you can be strong, steeled, and storm-proofed because you’ve not only heard what the Spirit says, but you’ve put hammer to nail and implemented it into your architecture. Be wise. Build well. Recommit yourself today to constructing the kind of life that Jesus said would withstand the stiffest gales of difficulty. Every house is built by someone, but the builder of all things is God. Hebrews 3:4 — He Speaks to Me — Where are some of the leaks and weak spots in the structure of your life? What is God asking you to implement that will begin to fix and fortify them?”

Awaken, Pricilla shrier

I need to build more of my life on the Rock. I have been allowing depression and self pity to come into my head. I have been alone, and lonely, and hurting. I have always feared the storms to come.

Yesterday, Craig shared about a patient that needed assistance, and was pretty bad off, with Covid. We haven’t been doing a great job at communicating lately, I had no words. God is so good though, in that he gave me two songs, one right after the other., Hope Darst, Peace be still & Josh Baldwin’s, Stand in your love.

God is asking me to simply be. To cast all of my cares upon Him. No promises, other than He will be with us in the storms of life. So, I lift up Craig, lift up the task force and the decisions we are making in reopening. Guide us father. Give us unity and Favor. May the storms you bring our way, draw others to you.

Hope 2019

I wait for the Lord , my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope. I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning. Israel, put your hope in the Lord , for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption.
Psalm 130:5‭-‬7 NIV

Trying to understand what HOPE is all about.

Believing that Jesus is who he says he is and will do what he says he will do. My prayer for pre believing family.


It is often easy to lose hope. Maybe my hope has been set on things, or people, and not on God alone.

I am a people pleaser by nature. And I feel that I fail so many, so often. I want to have a balance, that is fueled, not by me, or my desires, but by the leading of the Holy Spirit. I want to be compassionate and kind.

I need to remember that my hope is in Jesus alone.

But I trust in you, Lord ; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me. Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love. Let me not be put to shame, Lord , for I have cried out to you; but let the wicked be put to shame and be silent in the realm of the dead. Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous. How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you. In the shelter of your presence you hide them from all human intrigues; you keep them safe in your dwelling from accusing tongues. Praise be to the Lord , for he showed me the wonders of his love when I was in a city under siege. In my alarm I said, “I am cut off from your sight!” Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help. Love the Lord , all his faithful people! The Lord preserves those who are true to him, but the proud he pays back in full. Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord .
Psalm 31:14‭-‬24 NIV


These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go to the house of God under the protection of the Mighty One with shouts of joy and praise among the festive throng. Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
Psalm 42:4‭-‬5 NIV

My word for 2019, may be hope. This is the word I have been fixating on for a while now. I have been feeling like I have lost hope, and I am not sure why. Sometimes, joy seems to have disappeared as well. I need to hope in God, by faith…. Faith♡Hope♡love

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