I have always feared the storms….always. I have no control over what is happening in the world. 2020 is turning out to be inhospitable , depressing, and when I take my eyes off of Jesus, scary.

Priscilla Shrirer, in Awaken, wrote,”Your choice of building material determines your future. The way we build—it matters. The quality of materials we utilize to construct our lives matters. Isn’t that what Jesus said when He asked, “Why do you call Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do what I say? Everyone who comes to Me and hears My words and acts on them, I will show you whom he is like: he is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid a foundation on the rock; and when a flood occurred, the torrent burst against that house and could not shake it, because it had been well built” (Luke 6:46–49). The strength of being “on the rock.” “That house . . . could not shake.” “It had been well built.” Your choice of building material determines your future. Digging deep, hitting bedrock, and pouring a solid foundation on Christ alone and His Word alone are what secures you solidly to the ground. Because, listen to me, the storms are coming. And yet you can be strong, steeled, and storm-proofed because you’ve not only heard what the Spirit says, but you’ve put hammer to nail and implemented it into your architecture. Be wise. Build well. Recommit yourself today to constructing the kind of life that Jesus said would withstand the stiffest gales of difficulty. Every house is built by someone, but the builder of all things is God. Hebrews 3:4 — He Speaks to Me — Where are some of the leaks and weak spots in the structure of your life? What is God asking you to implement that will begin to fix and fortify them?”

Awaken, Pricilla shrier

I need to build more of my life on the Rock. I have been allowing depression and self pity to come into my head. I have been alone, and lonely, and hurting. I have always feared the storms to come.

Yesterday, Craig shared about a patient that needed assistance, and was pretty bad off, with Covid. We haven’t been doing a great job at communicating lately, I had no words. God is so good though, in that he gave me two songs, one right after the other., Hope Darst, Peace be still & Josh Baldwin’s, Stand in your love.

God is asking me to simply be. To cast all of my cares upon Him. No promises, other than He will be with us in the storms of life. So, I lift up Craig, lift up the task force and the decisions we are making in reopening. Guide us father. Give us unity and Favor. May the storms you bring our way, draw others to you.

God’s plan

This is an appropriate devotional, as we begin to plan for next year. Thank You father for your wisdom. Please continue to work out your will in our lives.

God’s Plan – Accept It! The plan was in place and now it was time to communicate it to the required listeners. Would they accept it, reject it, or ignore it? Human behavior is unpredictable at times and this was a watershed moment. Nehemiah was prepared to inform the “Jews, the priests, the nobles, the officials, and the rest who were to do the work.” Everyone, regardless of their stature, rank, or status, was informed of the plan, and we read that they readily accepted it! Immediately they went to labour each one taking a portion of the wall and reconstructing it. Even family members joined in (Shallum’s daughters)! Their hearts and minds were one and by God’s grace and power they collectively achieved their goal. This was God’s doing and not like the Tower of Babel’s building project. Consider yourself if you were there – would you readily take part in the task at hand? Prayer: Lord, let us do the work in your kingdom and Church that needs to be done. Let me do it with all my heart, strength, and ability in order that you be glorified. Let me acknowledge you first and consider my fellow believers before myself. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

God’s Mercy

• Describe a time when you experienced God’s mercy. There are so many times I deserved punishment and humiliation, but God gave me mercy. For no good reason. God has blessed me even though I have sinned- repeatedly.

• Have you ever spent time seeking to know God’s heart? How did it change your relationship with Him? I don’tseek God’s heart nearly enough. I think that their are times I treat him more like a Jeanie in the bottle. Forg ive me Father. sometimes I chase the world much harder thanI chase you. Forgive me for becoming a whitewashed tomb.

• David wrote songs to express his feelings to God, and so do I. The Book of Psalms is a book of songs. Try writing a psalm describing what you’ve felt toward God.

lord, you created me for your purpose. you created mykids to reach me. Father, your love and mercy is so underserved, yet you love me anyway. forgive me for my lacksadaisal faith. Yet you continue to bless and not curse. you place angels over our house. I have been so unfaithful to you, yet you have remained so faithful and kind.


I have so much to be thankful for. During this time of #stayhome, I have reflected about the peace that God has given me. As a new believer, I read all of Bodie Theonie’s books, Zion Covenant, and Zion Chronicals. They scared me. The main reason for the fear they invoked, was that I felt I would never be able to have the peace that passes all understanding that the characters had in these series. They were set in WWII and WW I (written in that order), and the characters took so many risks for Jesus.

I am not comparing what we as a world are experiencing at the moment, with COVId 19 to The world wars. Staying home isnt the worst thing that can happen. I actually kind of enjoy it. That said, it is a huge change in how life has been lived in all of my 53 years. From my limited human perspective, things may only get worse. Finances, health….

But, I have had an uncanny peace. As I walk outside, or talk to my chickens or even drive into work, I am at peace and thankful for all that God has provided.

I think that must be how the main characters in the books made it through…God’s peace was on them. For this, I am thankful.

Reckless Love

Day 12 LOSE YOUR RELIGION The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips, then walk out the door, and deny Him by their lifestyle. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable. —BRENNAN MANNING

From Reckless Love a 40 day devotional by Cory Asbury 2018

Have you ever had a significant moment of connection with God in which He surprised you with His kindness? What happened?

So many times.  The first one that comes to mind is the evening not to long ago, it was summer, and I was walking along the canal bank. The same canal bank I had walked as a little girl, hoping between hot sand and goat heads. (I learned to wear shoes). I was thinking about my pre and early teen years, and how weird I was (am). Weird, different,  possibly on the spectrum, (maybe we all are). I don’t recall exactly what caused me to think that…. but God very clearly spoke to my heart and said,  “I made you this way”.  The God who made the world and everything in it, made me, and cared enough about my psycho-perimenopausal thoughts, that HE let me know He made me the way I am.

Being an example

To the elders among you, I appeal as a fellow elder and a witness of Christ’s sufferings who also will share in the glory to be revealed: Be shepherds of God’s flock that is under your care, watching over them—not because you must, but because you are willing, as God wants you to be; not pursuing dishonest gain, but eager to serve; not Lording it over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock.

Maybe this is what I am missing. I need to be willing to serve those God has entrusted to me. Not because i must, but because I am.willing.

And when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the crown of glory that will never fade away. In the same way, you who are younger, submit yourselves to your elders. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

There is much here I should remember. Humility, humble.

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen. With the help of Silas, whom I regard as a faithful brother, I have written to you briefly, encouraging you and testifying that this is the true grace of God. Stand fast in it. She who is in Babylon, chosen together with you, sends you her greetings, and so does my son Mark. Greet one another with a kiss of love. Peace to all of you who are in Christ.

1 Peter 5:1‭-‬14 NIV

If I am not humble, we can all be devoured. Lord, I.want to serve you. At home and at work. Lead me. Give me the words I need, when I need them. Keep a sword over my mouth, that only that which is edifying. Comes out of my mouth.

Guide me in this dissertation.

Use me to be a blessing.


He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live.
Ecclesiastes 3:11‭-‬12 NIV

I have been awe-sruck by this verse lately. God has set eternity in the human heart.

As a child, I believed in Jesus. I may not have trusted him then, but I often sought him. I was comfortable at church. Felt as though I belonged…I dont know that I felt that anywhere else…

I didn’t have others to talk to, so thought I was weird, and had an overactive imagination. But today, I count these thoughts and ideas, as young a 5 years old… as part of the threads of my story.