In the meantime

As I looked at my Facebook memories, 10 years ago today, I wrote, “How are you living, in the meantime”? I am assuming it was from a sermon.. I feel as though we are currently living, “In the meantime”. No doubt we are always living in this place, but today, even more, 4 1/2 months into a world wide pandemic, it really feels like, “the meantime”. So many lives are out on hold. School is so different. So, what are you doing, in the meantime?

In Awaken, Priscilla Shrirer, wrote the following…

In the meantime, I desire to be used to show people God’s love, 💗 my prayer is….that God would give me: Faith, courage, wisdom, discernment. Father if I am whom you chose to show others your light, empower me with your spirit. Let your spirit of peace be so strong atound me, that others can also feel your warmth and love. May I possess the fruit of your spirit. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self control. I also need that self control for whole 30 and taking care of my body.

Anger

My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you. James 1:19‭-‬21 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/jas.1.19-21.NIV

People use the scripture of . Jesus overturning the money handlers as a demonstration, or Justification for being angery. But, human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires.

Storms

I have always feared the storms….always. I have no control over what is happening in the world. 2020 is turning out to be inhospitable , depressing, and when I take my eyes off of Jesus, scary.

Priscilla Shrirer, in Awaken, wrote,”Your choice of building material determines your future. The way we build—it matters. The quality of materials we utilize to construct our lives matters. Isn’t that what Jesus said when He asked, “Why do you call Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do what I say? Everyone who comes to Me and hears My words and acts on them, I will show you whom he is like: he is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid a foundation on the rock; and when a flood occurred, the torrent burst against that house and could not shake it, because it had been well built” (Luke 6:46–49). The strength of being “on the rock.” “That house . . . could not shake.” “It had been well built.” Your choice of building material determines your future. Digging deep, hitting bedrock, and pouring a solid foundation on Christ alone and His Word alone are what secures you solidly to the ground. Because, listen to me, the storms are coming. And yet you can be strong, steeled, and storm-proofed because you’ve not only heard what the Spirit says, but you’ve put hammer to nail and implemented it into your architecture. Be wise. Build well. Recommit yourself today to constructing the kind of life that Jesus said would withstand the stiffest gales of difficulty. Every house is built by someone, but the builder of all things is God. Hebrews 3:4 — He Speaks to Me — Where are some of the leaks and weak spots in the structure of your life? What is God asking you to implement that will begin to fix and fortify them?”

Awaken, Pricilla shrier

I need to build more of my life on the Rock. I have been allowing depression and self pity to come into my head. I have been alone, and lonely, and hurting. I have always feared the storms to come.

Yesterday, Craig shared about a patient that needed assistance, and was pretty bad off, with Covid. We haven’t been doing a great job at communicating lately, I had no words. God is so good though, in that he gave me two songs, one right after the other.

https://youtu.be/lsIpGiz3SfQ, Hope Darst, Peace be still & Josh Baldwin’s, Stand in your love. https://youtu.be/oFizRY8w0-I

God is asking me to simply be. To cast all of my cares upon Him. No promises, other than He will be with us in the storms of life. So, I lift up Craig, lift up the task force and the decisions we are making in reopening. Guide us father. Give us unity and Favor. May the storms you bring our way, draw others to you.

These are such meaningful poems 

 “All Along You Were Blooming: Thoughts for Boundless Living” by Morgan Harper Nichols –

I am not sure who has made you feel insignificant, but I can assure you no matter how you have been made to feel, your voice deserves to be heard. Your words are meant to be felt. And the life that comes out of you is unique to you and no one else.  You may not have the next few years figured out, and there are times when you want to speak up but you do not know how. But when the words do finally come and you find the courage to open up, your story will not be too much.
“I hope you know it is okay to have moments when you do not know what to say. I hope you know in the arms of Love, you have nothing to be ashamed of, even when the questions you are asking have no easy answers. I hope you know you are heard, in the wildest, roaring waves. I hope you know it is okay to lean into the grace that reminds you things will come together in the way they were supposed to.”

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A prayer for a nation of sinners…

When Jonah’s warning reached the king of Nineveh, he rose from his throne, took off his royal robes, covered himself with sackcloth and sat down in the dust. This is the proclamation he issued in Nineveh: “By the decree of the king and his nobles: Do not let people or animals, herds or flocks, taste anything; do not let them eat or drink. But let people and animals be covered with sackcloth. Let everyone call urgently on God. Let them give up their evil ways and their violence. Who knows? God may yet relent and with compassion turn from his fierce anger so that we will not perish.” When God saw what they did and how they turned from their evil ways, he relented and did not bring on them the destruction he had threatened. Jonah 3:6‭-‬10 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/jon.3.6-10.NIV

Wow, where will you rest? 

I thought of you when I read this quote from “Awaken: 90 Days with the God Who Speaks” by Priscilla Shirer –

“Yet on that great and fearful day when the trumpet of the Lord sounds, no one’s résumés and lists of achievements will be read, admired, and consulted for making seating decisions. Nothing we’re able to pull from our pocket of personal goodness will serve as a suitable pass. Only our believing faith (or lack of faith) in the Son of God will factor into what happens next. And many will be left standing with nowhere to rest their laurels. It is only Christ’s righteousness applied to our sinful hearts that guarantees our placement in heavenly places.”

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There is nothing new under the sun.

I often wonder, are we in the last days?  I want to be “pretrib”. If Jesus is going to rapture his church, I would love for.it to be before all of the tribulation.  But, I don’t see it, God generally does not keep his children from.going through hard times.  Hopefully I am wrong.  Then again, there are so many people that need to know Jesus…

Anyway, I often recall the ecclesiastic verse, that there is nothing new under the sun.

My testimony

It has been quite a while since I have shared my testimony. I don’t normally like to publicize it, because I know how dark my heart has been. God has been so incredibly gracious to me, in spite of myself. Reckless Love, by C. Asbury, reminds me of how God persued me.

Before I spoke a word, You were singing over me
You have been so, so good to me
Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me
You have been so, so kind to meOh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn’t earn it, and I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeahWhen I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so good to me
When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me
You have been so, so kind to meAnd oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
And I couldn’t earn it, and I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeahThere’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me
There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me
There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me
There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after meOh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
And I couldn’t earn it, I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah

I will get back to sharing my story…soon…..

Jesus Today and everyday

As I was dusting, I saw my Jesus Today , book on the table. Opened it up to the bookmark. It was exactly what I needed.

It is 2 fold…. deep yearnings for safety…. there are times I am afraid for the future, the economy, my kids….

Insecurities, Lies I believe, about not being good enough, or kind enough. No longer being you. (Well that is a truth, but I am having a difficult time embracing it). Not being good enough to be loved…. these are all lies that come from the pit. The only way to destroy them, is to read the word, apply it to my life…. and give it to God, over and over and over.

Ben Franklin’s Famous ‘Liberty, Safety’ Quote Lost Its Context In 21st Century : NPR

https://www.npr.org/2015/03/02/390245038/ben-franklins-famous-liberty-safety-quote-lost-its-context-in-21st-century

With the COVID pandemic, I have been following some interesting opinions. A person on Facebook has this as their background picture. It made me stop and think. Being the skeptic I am, I had to see if it was a real quote and where it came from. It appears it is used in todays technology debates, which also seems appropriate.

It was actually stated in regards to taxation. But it also fits with the #Stayathome order. People are giving up rights given by the Constitution of the United States. https://billofrightsinstitute.org/founding-documents/bill-of-rights/

1st admendment: separation of church and state , and to assemble together, peacefully.

Then, I started to think that I really dont know what our rights are. I found this fantastic page…

What is the Scope of the Bill of Rights?

It seems as though this is exactly what our Government is doing.

I need to be more familiar with our rights as Americans.