Truth telling.

3.8.19

Such a timely devotional. God is good and faithful, even when I am feeling weary and exhausted.

Be merciful to me, my God, for my enemies are in hot pursuit; all day long they press their attack. My adversaries pursue me all day long; in their pride many are attacking me. When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? All day long they twist my words; all their schemes are for my ruin. They conspire, they lurk, they watch my steps, hoping to take my life. Because of their wickedness do not let them escape; in your anger, God, bring the nations down. Record my misery; list my tears on your scroll — are they not in your record? Then my enemies will turn back when I call for help. By this I will know that God is for me. In God, whose word I praise, in the Lord , whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can man do to me? I am under vows to you, my God; I will present my thank offerings to you. For you have delivered me from death and my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before God in the light of life.
Psalm 56:1‭-‬13 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/psa.56.1-13.NIV

Made for this

Read 2 Corinthians 4:1–18. In his letter to the Corinthians, how did Paul’s understanding of Christ and the gospel affect . . . his view of himself? the purpose of his life? the way he suffers? After reading these passages, consider the answers to these two questions: Who are You, Lord? What do You want for me?

Therefore, since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to everyone’s conscience in the sight of God. And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel that displays the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For what we preach is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you. It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” Since we have that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you to himself. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
2 Corinthians 4:1‭-‬17 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/2co.4.1-17.NIV

Who am I? A light that lives out of darkness.

Powerful because of God in me.

God is…

God is God, and can take My view he wants.

Paul’s purpose was to lead others to the lors. To be a light to the kiddos.

Day 3 out of control

RESPOND

Recall a time when you were glad God trumped you in your life.

When I lost my job at VLCS, I was devastated. It was my dream job. I loved the kids. But, I also had a heart tug, to start a charter school. I would not have stepped out in faith, had I not been pushed.

Describe an experience that helped you to realize that your life was completely out of your control.

Successfully writing the charter. God opened doors Step by step. We were told by the “authorities”, we would be lucky to have 50 students. We opened with 350. None of this was me… it was all God working in me.

Where is your faith currently being tested?

Eight years of leading a school had left me feeling isolated at times. Continuing on when so many seem to hate me (I believe this is called people pleasing), is challenging. Sometimes, believing that God still lives me, even when so many dont is difficult.

Paying “anything” is also trading my faith. I am fearful of what I may lose… …but in all honesty, I haven’t really lost anything. Good had given me so much more.

What precious thing might you have missed if you had been afraid to risk? Take a moment to give thanks for that, and ask God to empower you to continue living for things you can’t see yet.

Thank you father. You have blessed me with so much. Sometimes I feel like I am the only one that really wants to do things right, but I know it isnt true. Give me your insight and wisdom. Show me what you see in those around me. Thank you for what you have done for students of Visalia. Give us wisdom as we plan for the future.

The question everyone asks themselves when looking over the cliff, before jumping into the unknown deep, is what do I have to lose? What are you most afraid of losing in this life? List them under each subject.

Comfort- my home, water, my lifestyle.

Success –

Approval – I struggle when people that dont know me have the wrong idea of who I am, based on other people’s lies. I want to be heard also. I also want those whose lives I am intertwined with, those that depend on our school to support them, to approve of what we do. Lord, I know that even you could not make everyone happy… and I am a mere person….who loves you, so not everyone will be happy with me either.

Acceptance-

Other – that my family wont know you as their Lord and savior….

All of this comes down to identity. Who are you apart from your things, your image, your people, and your plans? Are you secure alone with God? Freedom comes through letting go.

Made for this (day 1)

I am reading Made for this, By Jennie Allen.

Who are you, Lord?

He is the creator of everything, including life. My life, my kids life, even lives I dont care for… go figure….

What do you want from me?

To be humble, gentle, have mercy, and walk closely with my God. Quit worrying about people that hate me. They hate me on account of jesus.

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Ephesians 2:10 NIV
https://bible.com/verse-of-the-day/eph.2.10/572