Recall a time when you were glad God trumped you in your life.
When I lost my job at VLCS, I was devastated. It was my dream job. I loved the kids. But, I also had a heart tug, to start a charter school. I would not have stepped out in faith, had I not been pushed.
Describe an experience that helped you to realize that your life was completely out of your control.
Successfully writing the charter. God opened doors Step by step. We were told by the “authorities”, we would be lucky to have 50 students. We opened with 350. None of this was me… it was all God working in me.
Where is your faith currently being tested?
Eight years of leading a school had left me feeling isolated at times. Continuing on when so many seem to hate me (I believe this is called people pleasing), is challenging. Sometimes, believing that God still lives me, even when so many dont is difficult.
Paying “anything” is also trading my faith. I am fearful of what I may lose… …but in all honesty, I haven’t really lost anything. Good had given me so much more.
What precious thing might you have missed if you had been afraid to risk? Take a moment to give thanks for that, and ask God to empower you to continue living for things you can’t see yet.
Thank you father. You have blessed me with so much. Sometimes I feel like I am the only one that really wants to do things right, but I know it isnt true. Give me your insight and wisdom. Show me what you see in those around me. Thank you for what you have done for students of Visalia. Give us wisdom as we plan for the future.
The question everyone asks themselves when looking over the cliff, before jumping into the unknown deep, is what do I have to lose? What are you most afraid of losing in this life? List them under each subject.
Comfort- my home, water, my lifestyle.
Approval – I struggle when people that dont know me have the wrong idea of who I am, based on other people’s lies. I want to be heard also. I also want those whose lives I am intertwined with, those that depend on our school to support them, to approve of what we do. Lord, I know that even you could not make everyone happy… and I am a mere person….who loves you, so not everyone will be happy with me either.
Other – that my family wont know you as their Lord and savior….
All of this comes down to identity. Who are you apart from your things, your image, your people, and your plans? Are you secure alone with God? Freedom comes through letting go.