Good word

But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked.
Luke 6:35 NIV


It is often easy to lose hope. Maybe my hope has been set on things, or people, and not on God alone.

I am a people pleaser by nature. And I feel that I fail so many, so often. I want to have a balance, that is fueled, not by me, or my desires, but by the leading of the Holy Spirit. I want to be compassionate and kind.

I need to remember that my hope is in Jesus alone.

But I trust in you, Lord ; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me. Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love. Let me not be put to shame, Lord , for I have cried out to you; but let the wicked be put to shame and be silent in the realm of the dead. Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous. How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you. In the shelter of your presence you hide them from all human intrigues; you keep them safe in your dwelling from accusing tongues. Praise be to the Lord , for he showed me the wonders of his love when I was in a city under siege. In my alarm I said, “I am cut off from your sight!” Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help. Love the Lord , all his faithful people! The Lord preserves those who are true to him, but the proud he pays back in full. Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord .
Psalm 31:14‭-‬24 NIV


These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go to the house of God under the protection of the Mighty One with shouts of joy and praise among the festive throng. Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
Psalm 42:4‭-‬5 NIV

My word for 2019, may be hope. This is the word I have been fixating on for a while now. I have been feeling like I have lost hope, and I am not sure why. Sometimes, joy seems to have disappeared as well. I need to hope in God, by faith…. Faith♡Hope♡love

♡faith it

Keto reboot

I have been feeling like I just cant get my eating, or weight, under control. So, yesterday, I did day 1 of 2 days of the Pruvit keto reboot. If you want to try a sample… here is the link

I actually feel pretty good! I havent eaten for 32 hours, but have had my keto drink, keto bone broth, and keto kalm. I was only mildly hungry in the middle of the night, but decided God woke me up, because he wanted to hear from me.

I use the fitbit aria scale, and although I only lost 1 pound total ( in 1 day) it was ALL fat. Down 4.32 pound of fat, and up 4.32 pounds of lean muscle. I will take fat loss over lean tissue loss any day.

Do you hear what I hear?

Visalia First
December 16, 2018
12/16/2018 Visalia First: Do You Hear What I Hear
By: Mike D. Robertson
Lead Pastors | Mike & Karen Robertson

Why These Shepherds?

1. These shepherds were HUNGRY for more.

Why These Shepherds?

2. Shepherds were RELIGIOUS outcasts.

Why These Shepherds?

3. Shepherds were SOCIAL outcasts.

Luke 2:10 NKJV
10 Then the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people.

Do You Hear What I Hear?

1. Do you hear God’s HEART for all people?

Luke 19:10 NKJV
10 for the Son of Man has come to seek and to save that which was lost.”

Do You Hear What I Hear?

2. When was the last time you HEARD God speak?

Luke 2:17

“All who heard the shepherds were impressed.”

Do You Hear What I Hear?

3. When was the last time you heard God speak in a way that made you do something SIGNIFICANT?

Luke 2:8-19 MSG
8‭-‬12 There were sheepherders camping in the neighborhood. They had set night watches over their sheep. Suddenly, God’s angel stood among them and God’s glory blazed around them. They were terrified. The angel said, “Don’t be afraid. I’m here to announce a great and joyful event that is meant for everybody, worldwide: A Savior has just been born in David’s town, a Savior who is Messiah and Master. This is what you’re to look for: a baby wrapped in a blanket and lying in a manger.” 13‭-‬14 At once the angel was joined by a huge angelic choir singing God’s praises: Glory to God in the heavenly heights, Peace to all men and women on earth who please him. 15‭-‬18 As the angel choir withdrew into heaven, the sheepherders talked it over. “Let’s get over to Bethlehem as fast as we can and see for ourselves what God has revealed to us.” They left, running, and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby lying in the manger. Seeing was believing. They told everyone they met what the angels had said about this child. All who heard the sheepherders were impressed. 19‭-‬20 Mary kept all these things to herself, holding them dear, deep within herself. The sheepherders returned and let loose, glorifying and praising God for everything they had heard and seen. It turned out exactly the way they’d been told!

I can do it.

Today has been hard. I am feeling alone, and somewhat lonely. I am aware that people that know me and don’t like me, may be blog lurkers. I am aware that some of those same people may enjoy a post like this. I have decided that I am not going to let them stop me from being who I am. Honestly. This post isn’t about them…it is about me, and living authentically.

So often, women, especially strong women, dont give themselves permission to be transparent. There will always be someone who has something negative to say. (Sometimes it is even those close to us).

Today, I am struggling with the very real struggle called depression. When I begin to feel depressed there are often 2 to 3 reasons. Hormones (check), being overwhelmed by things I need to do (check)…and Satan (check). When all three things happen at the same time, I can be a mess.

That’s just what happened in Saturday. My hormones are out of whack….I have a 7 mile run to do..(which happens to be the number I have a hard time getting to), and there are so many little projects I have wanted to do ( and big ones, like finish chapter 2), that I dont feel like I can do.

We have a faucet we bought a few months back. I would change it, but cant get the cold side to shut off. My tail light has been out since August. The sink leaks, and the dishwasher doesnt work very well. The grass is growing under the pecan trees, and I thought the horses would enjoy it.

I used to be so independent, and now it seems I need to rely on my husband. But our tolerances and focus are rarely on the same page. So, I did what any hormonal depressed run avoiding girl would do. I went shopping at Lowes.

Honestly, I dont know what I intended to buy…. but I know what I came home with! Oh, yeah, Tposts and a new Tpost pounder since mine is MIA. Got those, and moved the fence line. I think I am going to ask for a spot in the pole barn, for hay. That way, I can also fence the grassy area around the hitching posts. Maybe I will beg, borrow, and steal Deven over break, to help me with stuff (like installing patient poles) Seems the area I planted grass out back, is I bought grass seed to plant some in the pasture that is closed. The rest of my shopping spree was to replace some cleaning supplies… oh, and I found a flooring I like, and may replace our bathroom floor, the bathroom, kitchen and laundry room over break!

I also figured out how to change out a light fixture…I admit, there were some tears… but…

Oh yeah…. and they work! ( although, husband is concerned that they may burn the house down).

Taking back a little bit of control has been good….

Ended the evening with littles and their parents at our churches Christmas event, Imagine More. Interestingly enough, I was sad all the way until we sat to watch the performance. The presence of God is in that place….