I need to remember to return here, whenever I feel as though I do today. I feel Ill-equipped. I know I am hated. One thing I have never wanted… being the people pleaser I am. I also think God has a plan to work on my personality.
Today, was, at times, difficult. I feel lost and lonely. I have thought many ti.es these last few weeks of quitting. Though, today when I searched edjoin, there was nothing for me…
At some point today I got past my frustration, and carried on. Now, sitting in the pool, stl not looking forward to work tomorrow…. I read this devotional. I am not in a traditional ministry, per se, but I do believe it is a ministry….I never wanted this role…. if I felt appreciated, which, more often than not, I don’t , or didn’t I would have loved staying at VCIS, changing lives…. but God had other plans for me….
Let’s go back to the basics. Back to the very reason you are serving God in your role. Take a moment, and let this question roll around in the corners of your mind:
Am I God commissioned?
Some of you feel strongly called to leadership and ministry. You can remember the details and circumstances preceding the acceptance of God’s call on your life. Others find yourselves in leadership by default. You married an accountant turned pastor and are now knee deep in leadership you never envisioned. Maybe you said you’d never marry someone in ministry, yet here you are … leading by default. Some knew you were marrying into a life of ministry. You were excited about your role as a pastor’s wife. However, you’re well aware you don’t possess the gift of leadership, yet you’re married to a very gifted leader. You find yourself in a position of leadership and influence into people’s lives. You feel misplaced and confused by what ministry looks like for you.
No matter how you found yourself in your role, we believe you were God commissioned.
None of us were called into ministry by popular vote. Take a stroll through our Facebook feeds or Google our names or ministries and you’ll find people not sending their votes our way. Whether they are giving your church a one star rating online, spreading gossip about your family, or launching a full-scale attack campaign, we are crystal clear that popular vote didn’t get us where we are today.
We didn’t jump into ministry by our own appointment. We could fill journals with lists of personal weaknesses and could easily drum up one hundred and one shortcomings. We didn’t appoint ourselves to these roles because we know us. We doubt ourselves. And if we are gut-level honest, we doubt God’s ability to use us.
Not by popular vote. Not by our own appointment. We are God commissioned. He chose us for these positions. He carefully placed us as pastors’ wives, ministry leaders, and influencers. If He commissions us, then He will surely equip us.
There is incredible joy found in the calling that comes directly from Jesus. Hang on to that today.
Before you get in the truck: Take time today to praise God for His calling on your life. Soak in the truth that you are God-commissioned.